Unbearable Agony: My Fight With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain around a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest bizarre treatments for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Erica Hodge
Erica Hodge

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